So, as the title says, I've been in the UK for 2 years now! This means that next spring, I will have to do the next state of the visa. This means saving up and giving up my vices! As unfortunate as that is, it's to an important cause. Yeah, I've been here for 2 years and still don't have any regrets. I can't help but feel that had I not spent the past 2 years HERE, I wouldn't be in the position I'm at. What with living on my own and whatnot. I'd still be stuck in a limbo. Despite everything, though, I can't help but feel that these past two months have been a bit rough. I've been more cynical and pessimistic about things. Really, the only one that keeps me sane is my husband. I probably wouldn't be here writing this if it weren't for him. I've been abandoned by so many people that I've become doubtful of the merit of others. But that's all sombre stuff, and I don't want to dampen the mood with that. Hopefully, if this visa goes through okay, things may start to pick up a bit. But I can assume that the months building up to it may be stressful and difficult. I'll be worried about the visa itself, as well as my husband, because I dread that he will push himself to death from overworking. I know he's putting all of his effort into earning money, but I still don't want to lose him to it. He's really the only rock I have in this selfish world. And it's going to be stressful to not be able to wind down with my usual vices, either. Again, I know it's going for an important cause. But that doesn't mean it'll be easy. But, like with the last visa, I can't help but worry about the outcome. Even though FLR(m) has a higher success rate, there's still that one-off chance. I'm not entirely sure what happens if it's refused. I've read that you can just apply for it again, without being deported. But still, after hearing the horror stories about people being deported despite being in the UK for 15+ years, I still can't help but worry.
It's difficult, but at least the hardship is worth it this time. My other pieces of cynicism spurs from dwelling over the past, so that can't be helped. I guess. I don't know. I'll see you in the next blog post I suppose. Hopefully, my mindset will be a little bit better. Hopefully.
It's difficult, but at least the hardship is worth it this time. My other pieces of cynicism spurs from dwelling over the past, so that can't be helped. I guess. I don't know. I'll see you in the next blog post I suppose. Hopefully, my mindset will be a little bit better. Hopefully.
