Good Research Improves Confidence

Now that I have a better idea on how to package and send my book-sized stack of documents, my hopes are a bit stronger now. Progress seems to be being made, and after reading expat forums I have more confidence in our documents. I think within the next 10-20 days I'll be at my biometrics appointment. And hence ready to send this.

But that doesn't mean I still dread a possible impending refusal...

It's Not All Easy

His documents finally showed up. And I won't lie, there is some solid evidence in there. But even with these documents having solid evidence, I still have low confidence and doubts. Honestly, I cannot think of anything else that the stack of document needs. Everything is there. Financial evidence, accommodation evidence, relationship evidence. All that is left is completing the VAF4A and scheduling a biometrics appointment. Then this visa application will be ready to ship. But being as this is called an "application" that means there are grounds for refusal. I cannot stop stressing about this. I have doubts that it will get approved. Even with all of the solid evidence we need. I am not going to give up, though. But it is hard to stay positive in all of this. Even with a good stack of documents. I really want to move over there, as I am not happy here. If this gets denied, that means I will be forced to remain here longer. I'm tired of this distance. I just want to live with my husband.

If this gets refused, they will be denying me that social right :( even with comfort from my family and husband, I still cannot help but feel skeptical that something in my life will go right for once...
If it gets refused, though, we will start over...

It's just that I've never been through anything like this. I do not know if there is anything I am missing, or anything I am doing wrong. It doesn't help that LoveMyBrit were forced to stop publishing helpful articles :( after what happened to them, I realized I cannot give detailed advice either, otherwise the same will happen to me. And I do not think I'll be able to freely publish a book about all this either. Or I will get in trouble. I mean, it is thanks to LoveMyBrit that I have come this far. I have confidence in their list. But the couple in LoveMyBrit has a more solid situation. With me, I don't even have a driver's license. I'm not sure...

I'm just having a lot of worries, doubts, and stress. And as a result, my face looks like it hit puberty :(

This is hard. I just wish we lived in a close proximity relationship. Living happily together like other couples. Why am I the one to jump through all these hoops? What did I do to deserve this?


Please pray for me.

The Process is Officially STAGNATED

I have everything ready. I've had it ready since a week after he left.

He sent documents, but they failed to arrive. He did not and has not kept me updated, or even mentioned anything about it. It took him months to get his documents together. I had mine together in a few days. The only thing that took long was my passport application. I have been thinking he's not invested in this like I am. And my family agrees. I've been on thin strings here lately, but as the past four years of my life has been rough, I have grown accustomed to such tribulations. I can sense my dream of moving to the UK fading. It doesn't help that I'm afraid this will all be in vain...that the visa will be rejected. So four months of stress, loneliness, and frustration...for what? Nothing. I suppose I'm going to have to accept the fact that I'm succumbed to a lifetime of unhappiness. But it is alright. As I said, I am accustomed to it.

Do not fret, I am fine. Just needed to get this out there.