Doubts

As of right now, I'm starting to wonder if I should've taken the fiancé visa route. At least then I would be married and with him. Nothing hurts worse than to marry somebody only to have them go back home two weeks later. It's extremely unfair, but so is life. Lately though I've been having some bad resentment. I will not go into detail. But it still stands that I will not take this distance any longer. I could handle it before but now that we are married, I can't handle it anymore. This isn't what a marriage is supposed to be like. Especially a new and fresh one at that. I'm not supposed to be feeling lonely, abandoned, or physically disconnected. A fresh marriage should never be that way. But here I am, feeling this way. Ugh.
I'm having this bitter jealousy towards LoveMyBrit too. As much I HIGHLY appreciate their help and are blessed by their detailed articles, I can't also help but feel jealous that they've closed the distance successfully.

I'm not giving up on this, but I'm most definitely on thin strings now.




Happy 4th everyone! 🇺🇸


Can't say I will, cause 9 times outta 10 I'll be left home alone. But truly at this point I'm resigned to it.