Wow...it has only been a day since I mailed the package and I am already suffering! I do not know how long this will take, or how long I will have to endure this...I opted for priority so HOPEFULLY it shouldn't take a month. I can't stop thinking about what the results might be...it is giving me some bad anxiety. My husband and family members are all so confident that it will be accepted. But me being the pessimist I am, I can't feel the same. I am confident in our documents, but at the same time I also have doubts. I've got this mixture of pessimism and optimism...it isn't fun. I wish I could get my mind off of it but I cannot find the motivation to do the things I enjoy because all of this is making me paranoid. I don't know...maybe I am overreacting. Then again, the fate of my future depends on a bunch of British elites. If it gets refused, I will be forced to remain apart from my husband a lot longer. And quite frankly, I am not sure how much more I can endure that. I want to be with him permanently! I am so tired of the stress, worries, and anxiety. I just want to be happy...and that fact depends on the decision of the government, which is frustrating. This whole thing is frustrating!! I've tried talking to others, but they are so insistent that this will go through perfectly and that I will be accepted.
...I really wish I had the capacity to have those kinds of thoughts :(
And I am not religious so I don't believe praying is going to help...
Sorry, I just need to get this out there. I think I'm in the hardest part of the visa application process right now.
...I really wish I had the capacity to have those kinds of thoughts :(
And I am not religious so I don't believe praying is going to help...
Sorry, I just need to get this out there. I think I'm in the hardest part of the visa application process right now.
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