This lockdown stuff is really crazy, isn't it? I've been out of work for a month now, and it feels so surreal. But I'm so glad I'm here with my husband. Because the alternative would've been me still in America, away from him. And by this point, he probably would've had a flight booked, or was planning to get a flight booked. Imagine how disappointed I would've been had his flight been cancelled due to all that has gone on?
I'm sorry I haven't been updating this very much, I've been busy with other things. I've been writing, drawing, video editing, streaming, and making let's plays. I have to keep myself busy during these times! I only really think about this blog when I think about the visa...which is right now. I'm trying to write, but I'm listening to old songs I had before. They're love songs my husband and I listened to to stay sane while we were apart. While listening to them, I started thinking about the next (and final) visa. It's probably about two years away at this rate, but I'm already starting to worry lol. Mainly because my husband had no choice but to cancel his Carer's Allowance, so we're having to make sure our combined income will be enough. Income naturally goes up every year, and I'll be earning Living Wage after I turn 25 in November. Not to mention my husband has sort of gotten promoted, so I don't know how much he makes every month right now; it's been up in the air since this outbreak, not to mention the fact that there was management dysfunction at work prior to all of this.
I'm relieved that I don't have to pay NHS for the next visa, because I read that it's going up again (or has gone up again). It's like £1600 now or something stupid like that. But I do have to worry about the Life in the UK test next...so I'll have to think about getting into studying that at some point. I know I still have a lot of time before I have to worry about it, but...here I am. Worrying about it already. When I have only had my current visa for like seven months. I just can't shake this internal fear that the visa will be refused, and I'll have to go back there...my already fragile mental health will take a massive toll if that happens. I honestly couldn't handle it. I've grown so close and attached to my husband as is.
Since it's the final visa, it should have an even higher acceptance rate. BUT ONCE AGAIN, MY ANXIETY PREVENTS ME FROM THINKING POSITIVE! Augh!! I shouldn't be stressing during lockdown time. I'm not working, I'm not dealing with people, I have no deadlines, I'm still getting paid. I just...I hope this next visa goes by smooth sailing. After that, I'm D-O-N-E. NO MORE VISAS. I could apply for citizenship if I wanted to, it's like £2300-some-odd. It's completely voluntary. But it would eliminate the need to apply for a new BRP every ten years. And it'd give me a British passport + eligibility to vote.
I still have awhile to think about this stuff. Right now, I need to try and get my mind off of it so that I can write.
In the meantime, let me just plug in my art. Just a little over a month away, and Xenoblade Chronicles Definitive Edition will be out!!
I'm sorry I haven't been updating this very much, I've been busy with other things. I've been writing, drawing, video editing, streaming, and making let's plays. I have to keep myself busy during these times! I only really think about this blog when I think about the visa...which is right now. I'm trying to write, but I'm listening to old songs I had before. They're love songs my husband and I listened to to stay sane while we were apart. While listening to them, I started thinking about the next (and final) visa. It's probably about two years away at this rate, but I'm already starting to worry lol. Mainly because my husband had no choice but to cancel his Carer's Allowance, so we're having to make sure our combined income will be enough. Income naturally goes up every year, and I'll be earning Living Wage after I turn 25 in November. Not to mention my husband has sort of gotten promoted, so I don't know how much he makes every month right now; it's been up in the air since this outbreak, not to mention the fact that there was management dysfunction at work prior to all of this.
I'm relieved that I don't have to pay NHS for the next visa, because I read that it's going up again (or has gone up again). It's like £1600 now or something stupid like that. But I do have to worry about the Life in the UK test next...so I'll have to think about getting into studying that at some point. I know I still have a lot of time before I have to worry about it, but...here I am. Worrying about it already. When I have only had my current visa for like seven months. I just can't shake this internal fear that the visa will be refused, and I'll have to go back there...my already fragile mental health will take a massive toll if that happens. I honestly couldn't handle it. I've grown so close and attached to my husband as is.
Since it's the final visa, it should have an even higher acceptance rate. BUT ONCE AGAIN, MY ANXIETY PREVENTS ME FROM THINKING POSITIVE! Augh!! I shouldn't be stressing during lockdown time. I'm not working, I'm not dealing with people, I have no deadlines, I'm still getting paid. I just...I hope this next visa goes by smooth sailing. After that, I'm D-O-N-E. NO MORE VISAS. I could apply for citizenship if I wanted to, it's like £2300-some-odd. It's completely voluntary. But it would eliminate the need to apply for a new BRP every ten years. And it'd give me a British passport + eligibility to vote.
I still have awhile to think about this stuff. Right now, I need to try and get my mind off of it so that I can write.
In the meantime, let me just plug in my art. Just a little over a month away, and Xenoblade Chronicles Definitive Edition will be out!!
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